Tanzy Alexis Said It!

So I took a short break to finish out my path of consecration last week. I embarked upon a 21 day FAST with my supervisor and her church. The fast was to be considered a RESET for our spirits and LORD KNOWS I needed one. I decided I would DENY food from sun up to sun down. (6am-6pm) TALK ABOUT THE STRUGGLE . Not only was I fasting to RESET my spirit, I was fasting for CLARITY, CONFIDENCE, AND PEACE . The first week of my fast was a war in my EMOTIONS. I cried so much YO! Then to make it worse the areas I was expecting God to make moves were the same areas I was struggling in ( WORK and my LOVE LIFE !) Everything and anything was thrown at me all at once. I remember telling myself, “If the next two weeks will be anything like this week, I’m not going to make it.” The second week was all PHYSICAL . My asthma and allergies were kicking my tail mayne! Some days I would feel sick. My hunger pangs were OFF THE CHAIN too! Once the sun went down I would SWALLOW MY FOOD lol...

When I first joined my church, my pastor mentioned a few times to us about SOUL TIES . It was a new term but not necessarily foreign, only because at that moment I felt as if I was tangled up in something. Something that I could not put a finger on. And so when my pastor described to us that SOUL TIES primarily result from engaging in sexual relationships with people who God hasn’t chosen for us, *cough FORNICATION cough* I was dumbstruck. He also told us that when we have sex, there is a transference of spirits from one person to the next. Similar to when someone shakes hands with someone and germs transfer from one hand to another You can say that was my !AHA ! moment.  Needless to say it took me almost a WHOLE YEAR AND HALF to untangle myself from that SOUL TIE! That SOUL TIE might I add. had me so WRAPPED UP AND BOUND it wasn’t even funny yo! Then even after I was delivered, I found that I had scars, unhealed rope burns, and bruises on my spirit and they all were ...

I'm in an ON GUARD mode right now. Like you know how the U.S. was on high alert after the bombing in Boston? Yeah that's what I'm on ...HIGH ALERT ! When it comes to the devil, I'm not playing with him. He ain't never gone be a friend of mine! BOOM! But check this out, this is how you and I have to be at ALL TIMES! Why?                                            1 Peter 5:8 Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping . Keep your guard up. You see the piece of scripture highlighted in purple? THIS IS WHY YOU NEED TO BE ON HIGH ALERT ALL THE TIME! DON'T LET THE DEVIL CATCH YOU LACKIN"! What does it mean to be caught LACKIN'? Actually this scripture above defined it for us. To be...

Woop woop! I'm still feeling the high from this weekend! Plus I was on a mini vacation so I'm feeling really nice and refreshed! So how was you all's Memorial Day? Grand? Mines was too even though I spent my holiday in solitary confinement. lol I couldn't go anywhere foreal! I think I updated my status on facebook once. Why? My writing held me captive yo! (If you're a writer you feel me) Anybody'swho, I haven't been paying attention to the news lately so I was extremely shocked to hear that the guy who shot and killed six month old Jonylah Watkins a few months ago, turned himself in this past Saturday. I was relieved to hear the good news that the streets was rid of one more monster. So initially we all suspected and the police concluded that the baby was not the intended target, that in fact it was her father (who actually survived the shooting). If this doesn't disturb you, brace yourself for this, the guy who shot and killed little Jonylah appare...

I’ve been teaching Sunday school for the primary department (ages 3-9) at my church for almost four years now and boy has it changed me. I used to hate kids. Let me say that again. I used to HATE KIDS . I lacked the patience and empathy for them. Don’t let one start crying…I would have a fit my dang on self. I would scowl at them and call them heathens when I saw them acting unruly. I would argue with them, trip them, (YUP!), laugh at them, and run from them. I couldn’t stand them, JESUS! Then something happened. One faithful Sunday I was directed by the late great Arthur T. Bonds to go teach for THESE HEATHENS . I was disgusted! I walked into the classroom expecting to be annoyed but I wasn’t. I saw there little angelic faces and their happy eyes. That hardened cast around my heart started to peel off. My hatred towards them, transformed into compassion. It took a minute though for my drill sergeant ways to die down but the more and more I began to spend time with them the...

So I was looking over the statistics of my blog and noticed that my last post, The Holding Pattern , only got 4 views. Which I'm pretty sure I'm probably responsible for 2 of them. (And YES I do read my posts a few times after I publish them, that's how I perfect my craft)  Before I could get discouraged, I thought about my journey as a person, a woman seeking and holding herself fearlessly reponsible for relaying the truth (As I know it *wink*) by any means necessary, and I couldn't help but be proud of myself. So I decided to count all of this as a huge part of my coming SUCCESS . "Action is the fund a mental key to success." Pablo Picasso WHAT SUCCESS IS .... I have observed more and more that society has a skewed view of what success is. The person with the nice car, the most money, the nicest clothes etc are deemed to be successful. And you see droves of people running to gas stations and stores to play the lottery expecting to HIT IT BIG...

Once again I am in a weird spot right now. You know for the most part I can tell when something is a little off in my life, either, it's too noisy and things are happening back to back or it's too quiet and  NOTHING is happening, AT ALL! I also notice a weirdness when I become  SUPER RESTLESS , uncomfortable, and  irritable in a certaim area of my life. Well, I'm super restless, uncomfortable, and irritable. It's too quiet and nothing is happening at all, so it's safe to assume that I am in a HOLDING PATTERN. ( like I said, I've been here before) THE HOLDING PATTERN-   1. usually circular pattern flown by aircraft awaiting clearance to land at an airport. 2. Informal A state of waiting or delay; a static situation. Now don't get me wrong, I see movement and progress in areas that were as dry as the Sahara desert. Ha! But then other areas are STILL DRY . (Ain't nothing poppin shawty lol) Yesterday I wanted to throw a tantrum...