Tanzy Alexis Said It!

" I want something more than this. I’ve given all I can give. Show me the way. Won’t you show me the way? J ust wanna feel I belong. I just need the strength to be strong. Show me a way. Won’t you show me a way? Show me which way to go, can’t do this all alone. I can’t do this all alone. Don’t feel like I know how t o make it on my own. Can anybody hear? Is anybody listening? The lyrics from the group Danity Kane's "Is Anybody Listening", is singing my life with its song. I'm in a weird place right now. I kind of thought I would be posting twice a month but writing is my medicine, so I guess I will be posting as much as I need to. Anybody'swho, yesterday I expressed a dramatic soliloquy, "I feel like drawing the velvet curtains, shutting off the lights, and unplugging the mic. I wanna walk away from it all." Nothing more and nothing less. But enough that my bestfriend (my one woman audience) understood without any added fervor. (I lov

                                                     Sitting here listening to an instrumental version of Lloyd Banks' "I Don't Deserve You" (I'm sorry that beat goes hard in the a paint) Anybody'swho, this weekend i was talking to my cousin who lives in Arizona. We were talking about a bit of everything. I remembered expressing my current frustrations about where I stood in life, the setbacks, disappointments, and this irritating feeling that I was moving in slow motion. I mean I was going HAM! Like "Such and such was able to do this and got that," "Ok so how was buddy able to get there and I aint there yet!" "Look how hard I'm out here working! What the HELL?" My cousin gave me a few slices of advice and garnished it with where I was right now, all of which I cared little about until I got off the phone. That's when it hit me or better yet that's when God went OOPS UP-SIDE MY HEAD, I said a OOPS up-side my h