Sitting here listening to an instrumental version of Lloyd Banks' "I Don't Deserve You" (I'm sorry that beat goes hard in the a paint) Anybody'swho, this weekend i was talking to my cousin who lives in Arizona. We were talking about a bit of everything. I remembered expressing my current frustrations about where I stood in life, the setbacks, disappointments, and this irritating feeling that I was moving in slow motion. I mean I was going HAM! Like "Such and such was able to do this and got that," "Ok so how was buddy able to get there and I aint there yet!" "Look how hard I'm out here working! What the HELL?" My cousin gave me a few slices of advice and garnished it with where I was right now, all of which I cared little about until I got off the phone.
That's when it hit me or better yet that's when God went OOPS UP-SIDE MY HEAD, I said a OOPS up-side my head and said, "LOOK AT YOUR HAND!" I returned the favor by giving him that "something stank" face. Once again He said, "LOOK AT YOUR HAND!!!" Before I could retreat into my sarcastic buttwodish ways (I get like that sometimes) by literally STARING at my pale pink hands, I saw SHE ME HER walking across the stage 3 yrs ago getting my Bachelor's in Finance diploma from the president of Chicago State University, I saw me typing the LAST WORD of my first book (Tears of Kings coming real REAL SOON!) 3 1/2 years ago, I saw me jumping for joy when the HR rep told me "YOU GOT THE JOB!" 2 yrs ago, and I saw me walking down the aisle of my current church to give my life to GOD 4yrs ago! Then I saw how all that could take me someplace HIGHER! (say what?) Yeeees chile!
That's when I realized I actually got a better hand than I thought. While I was sitting here looking like a dumb dumb DIITTTYYY, I pity the fool, and comparing my life with other people's lives, I'd fail to realize that God had not only dealt me a good hand but He dealt me a FAIR HAND with all kinds of GREAT POWERFUL CARDS that could actually bring this game to its knees. I mean a hand so sweet I could shout like Rudy on The Huxtables "King me! King me! Kiiiing meeeee!"(yeah I know she was playing chess lol)
So yeah, I know somebody out there feeling like this chick. I'm telling you, I've thrown tantrums, walked the floor at night, wrestled with insomnia, got jealous real quick (just a hot second), cursed, (oh boy!), and you name it. But I tell you friends, if you just sit still for a minute, fold out your cards in your hands, maybe even rearrange em, whatever you do, look at your hand and PLAY THE HAND THAT GOD GAVE YOU! #Boom!
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