??QUESTION?? Have you ever been in the car with someone who was terrible on their breaks. I mean they had you thinking, "They killing them breaks, yo. They gone run this car into the dirt." Everything has a maximum operating compacity. Everything? EVERY-THING! This includes your body. Panic attacks, exhaustion, and chronic fatigue are all examples of your body being pushed to the limit!
Your spirit has a maximum operating capacity as well. Depression. insomnia, and believe it or not headaches and migraines (you been thinking too hard!) are symptoms of your spirit being forced past its comfortable levels of capabilities. So I think this is the perfect place to say it, PUT THAT LOAD DOWN CHILE! Yesterday I was experiencing a terrible headache. My head felt like it was about to pop! Anybody remember that movie I'm Gone Get You Sucka when the character played by actor Jim Brown couldn't run anymore because he had a bunion on his toe. LOL!!! He took his shoe off and that bad boy was pulsating! (That ain't funny to you? lol)
Well, that's what my head felt like. Yet I pushed myself to bible study and forced myself to stay for choir rehearsal, where we rehearsed some of the hardest songs. CLAUDE HELP ME!. The songs that demand your exertion. Songs with notes that will carry you STRAIGHT TO THE MOUNTAINTOP! (I've seen the mountaintop, ya'll!) To make it worse, we had to keep going over these songs because some people weren't willing to HIT IT HARD GET RIGHT CHURCH and let's GO HOME that thang! (shaking my head at the struggle.) I'm looking around like, "MAN! If I gotta keep screaming SINCE I LAID MY BURDENS DOWN! I'm gone FALL DOWN and roll up under one of these pews." Real talk I felt like somedody was going to be calling the paramedicals (yeah I already know what you thinking lol)
I still managed to give it my all (while my killer headache took a backseat) on up until choir rehearsal was over. I managed to linger around a little bit and hitched a ride with one of my fellow choir members. My headache came back like Michael Myers in the Halloween series when I started to tell her about all the things I'd be shelling out $benfranks$ for. ($benfranks$ that I don't have!) I got in the house feeling dizzy and irritable. So I'm like "Oh Lord Jesus, am I having an anxiety attack or am I just hungry?" So I ate something, drank some water and the headache still was there. I gave up and laid down, My headache was off the chain by this time. Felt like my brain was about to ooze out of my eyes and ears! (ick! >_<)
I'm laying in this bed semi incompacitated (No meds in my cabinets smh) Instead of praying for rest and healing, my retarded self start going over again what I was talking to my friend about. Then I remembered just what caused this headache! See, earlier that day I had been bombarded with all of these contracts from the company who will be responsible for producing and distributing my book. Sign here, print here, agree to the terms here, review the fee chart, fees, payment for fees (the woes of self publishing).........AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Stop screaming for one minute Tanzy, "Did you forget you're the maid of honor in your bestfriend's wedding in L.A.?" Ok you can start back screaming now, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!"
By that time I was no longer semi incapacitated but bordering close to having a mental seizure. I was getting ready to be OUT FOR THE COUNT! You hear me? Then from out of nowhere I hear "Put that down, and get from over there!" o_0 huh? "You're not even supposed to be over there. That's MY territory." That was the second thing I heard.
Apparently, my thoughts had travled to an area they weren't meant to be in and started picking up burdens they weren't supposed to carry. My headache was a symptom of my thoughts straining to be SUPERMAN, when nobody called them to be superman in the first place! Which is what caused God to tell me "PUT THAT LOAD DOWN CHILE!" Has anybody else had this issue? Have you ever thought past your days. Have you ever been caught thinking for weeks in advance. For me all I do is THINK! If you were to choose the lowest form of currency in U.S. aka the PENNY and used it to pay for my thoughts you'd be in DEBT my friend. (don't risk it playa) I belong to the THINKERS' SOCIETY INCOPORATED (I just made that up) where ALL we do is THINK! And when we overthink....let's just say hell hath no fury like an OVERTHINKER!
God had to step in REAL QUICK before my inevitable spontaneous combustion!
Psalms 55:22 Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.
Matthew 11: 28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
These are the two scriptures God fed me (my pain meds *wink*) Then I heard Hezekiah Walker's Jesus Knows How Much We Can Bear.(my water *wink wink*) Soon after, my ballheaded tail went to sleep.
HEAR THIS! God created us to be awesome and capable beings, but he also made us to NEED HIM! See we have parameters that He put inside of us to let us know when WE can't do something. That very thing WE can't do is that thing HE CAN DO! It would BEHOOVE you (I've always liked that word) to allow God to do the things HE CAN DO and you stick to the things that YOU CAN DO! Don't that sound like a pleasant engagement? We tend to get frustrated and irritated when we forget our role in this engagement. Stop overthinking things! (that one was for me!) Stop overanalyzing things! Focus on your today and NOT your tomorrow, or your next week, or your next month. You forcus on your today because WHATEVER you do today will be the best introduction for your tomorrow and henceforth. Tomorrow, next week, and next year is too big for you! If it's too big to carry chances are my friend it ain't for you to carry. PUT THAT LOAD DOWN CHILE!
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