This is where I was lead, Tuesday night I cried myself to sleep, Friday night I cried, myself to sleep and Saturday night I cried myself to sleep. Mind you I have a birthday coming up. My book Tears of Kings is now available for anybody who likes to read. I'm free with no immediate worries. I may not have everything I want but I have everything I need. So why have I been crying so much?
I mean I literally had to ask myself, "Are you bipolar or something, sweetie?" One day I'm doing cartwheels, singing in the rain, sliding down rainbows, chasing birds, and kissing flowers. Then the next day, I want to die! To make it worse, everywhere I turned I had the enemy irritating me. What gives? God has been doing an awesome job at getting me acquainted with how He works and it’s been AMAZING to say the LEAST. So the next question I had to ask myself is, “Why so serious?” (In my Joker voice from the Dark Knight.)
I had to hit myself upside the head with a shoe. Did I NOT remember sharing with you all in my last post that I was going to be DRINKING THE CUP! Did I FORGET that I DID in fact drink THE CUP? Did I forget what was in it? Did I forget, that one of the ministers at my church SPECIFICALLY told us NOT TO FORGET? Yup! Somebody say, “She forgot.”
And guess what else I forgot folks? I forgot that THE CUP would expose me to the devils wiles and foolery. I forgot I would be VULNERABLE AND NAKED, because in order to go higher you HAVE TO GET NAKED to be pruned. You have to allow God to pull off all that DEAD SKIN. Depending on where He wants to take you, the side effects will vary, but there’s an unavoidable an inevitable side effect that may linger for a little bit, WEEPING MAY ENDURE FOR A NIGHT.
Now hear this, I am not a sensitive person but I am super emotional. I know that doesn’t even make sense. Lol. Look, before I got into a serious relationship with God, someone told me that I had no feelings, that I was hard and rigid. People would intentionally throw things at me and it would either slide or bounce off of me. And even though nothing really sank in, I would bite back HARD! That’s where the super emotions kicked in. If I’m happy, then I am very, very happy. If I’m sad then I’m very, very sad. When I'm mad, CHILE WATCH OUT! There’s no in between with me, ALL EXTREMES! But all this crying is blowing me. It’s so foreign yo!
Psalm 30:5
“For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”
I like to believe, based off of my experience, that, “NIGHT” in this scripture can expand as far as 24 hours to some days. Don’t mean to scare you but, you may even experience weeping for an ENTIRE SEASON. It all depends on what God is trying to get out of you.
Psalm 126:5
“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.”
How do you DEAL with this side effect? Well first, DON’T try to MIX MEDICINES! You have to let whatever was in THE CUP drain and flush you out and it can only do that when you let it go through your system and run its course. Don’t run to people, they can potentially REINFECT YOU and don’t run to the TEMPTATIONS OF YOUR FLESH. What was the point of drinking THE CUP? Now why you wanna go and do that?(In my T.I. voice.) It’s so funny that my pastor told us this Sunday that sometimes you have to be by yourself. THIS is a perfect time to be alone.
James 1:2-4
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
That’s it right there! There is nothing else you should do my dear during this time but stay still and LET THE CUP WRECK YOU! Let God BREAK YOU IN HALF and EMPTY YOU OUT! When the medicine has flooded your veins, you will wake up in a new season with a BRAND NEW kind of JOY. You will feel unstoppable because you WILL BE UNSTOPPABLE. The light that you’ll harness will be blinding and the blessing that you’ll reap will be too big to carry. And that’s the GOOD NEWS my awesome friends. WEEPING MAY ENDURE FOR A NIGHT, BUT JOY COMES IN THE MORNING! You feel me?
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