Tanzy Alexis Said It!

 Howdy there! You know I have about two posts just sitting in my dashboard waiting to be completed but I couldn't get them done, not because of writer's block though. It moreso has to do with my spirit being shaken up a little bit recently. You know, when you're moving to a new home and/or location, your furniture and other belongings are going to be shaken up and rearranged. Nothing will stay put or remain in its original spot when you're picking up and going someplace else. The same can be said about your spirit. When you are progressively on the move UPWARD, things WILL change. And I hate to scare you but some parts of your spirt will be BROKEN. There will also be things you'll have to detach from and leave behind. Sometimes by choice and others based on the fact that this NEW place won't have room for it anymore. With all that being said, I am moving out of this season of solitary confinement (YES LORD!) and off to experience some NEW THANGS! I...

So, last week I shared with you all that I was in a season of solitary confinement. Depending on where you are mentally and spiritually, this season can be a bit trying sometimes and you’re not always going to find yourself in the most pleasant of circumstances. NEVERTHELESS, if you want to go higher in God and you want to recognize your power, impact, and your assignment in Him, this season will be a vital part of that discovery. Now if you can recall, I named a few situations that will help you figure out if you’re in a season of solitary confinement. With that being said, these situations will require that you take off those little tighty whities you’ve been wearing during your walk and GURD UP YOUR LOINS to put on some BIG BOY AND BIG GIRL DRAWLS! Ha! Say what? YES! You will be required to square your shoulders and suck up some things real quick. Like seriously take your emotions off your sleeve and try your hardest to NOT get OFFENDED! At some point of this wal...

  So how are y’all hanging? Any new revelations been dropped since the last post? Are you still about that life though? You are? Good! I’m still about that life too but I have become aware of a certain situation I’m in now or maybe I should say SEASON. For the last few months or so, I have been feeling weirdly isolated. At first I would have an occasional bout of loneliness. But now the bouts have accelerated and things are becoming more NOTICABLE. Since my best friend, my most personal contact and only confidant, got married and moved to L.A last December I have been forced to experience being alone for longer periods of time. Don’t get me wrong, I have pretty much lived the life of a loner since as far back as I can remember. Nevertheless, I have always had at least one person in my corner to reach out to. But now my best friend is miles away nurturing her marriage. Moreover, God gave me an ultimatum, HIM OR ME. Only because I could NOT engage intimately with God ...

The HEAT IS ON , the pressure has been elevated, tensions are pressed, and the stakes are HIGH, JESUS ! And I'm in there like swimwear! What are you talking about Tanzy Alexis? Thanks for asking! I'm talking about THE STRUGGLE, THE GRIND, THE HUSTLE that comes with this walk of FAITH ! If there was ever a time for me to say that ISH has gotten REAL , then this is that time! But I was created for a time such as THIS and I will not give up! I will PRESS TOWARD THE MARK! KNOW DAT! Enough with all of my maniacal rambling, I must discuss the matter at hand. SOMEBODY GOTTA DIE! (In my Notorious B.I.G voice lol) One faithful Wednesday evening during bible study my wonderful pastor was talking to us about DIVINE DISTURBANCES and he must have mentioned that something in our lives would have to die in order for something NEW to be birthed in that season. I was standing in agreement with my pastor. But hear this, while I was nodding my head in agreement, I really truly believ...

 You ROCK! You are GREAT! You are BEAUTIFUL in all of your AWESOMENESS! Go run and look at yourself in the mirror really quick. Ok, you’re back! Catch your breath. Ok, you know that person that you just saw in the mirror? Well, that’s YOU and God made YOU just the way you are! I thought I would open up this post like that. You know why, because EVERYBODY is struggling with some kind of insecurity even the famous people. Really? Yes! Plastic surgeons, hairstylists, and makeup artists to the stars are being paid off of these people’s INSECURITIES. Whatever they don’t like about themselves, they PAY big bucks to have it changed. But you know what this does? It creates a toxic cycle of UNSATISFACTION. These people will never be completely satisfied with how they look because they’ve unknowingly conditioned themselves to believe that there will ALWAYS be something about them that needs to be fixed. Sad but true.  I’ve struggled with my own insecurities since I was thirteen. ...

So I took a short break to finish out my path of consecration last week. I embarked upon a 21 day FAST with my supervisor and her church. The fast was to be considered a RESET for our spirits and LORD KNOWS I needed one. I decided I would DENY food from sun up to sun down. (6am-6pm) TALK ABOUT THE STRUGGLE . Not only was I fasting to RESET my spirit, I was fasting for CLARITY, CONFIDENCE, AND PEACE . The first week of my fast was a war in my EMOTIONS. I cried so much YO! Then to make it worse the areas I was expecting God to make moves were the same areas I was struggling in ( WORK and my LOVE LIFE !) Everything and anything was thrown at me all at once. I remember telling myself, “If the next two weeks will be anything like this week, I’m not going to make it.” The second week was all PHYSICAL . My asthma and allergies were kicking my tail mayne! Some days I would feel sick. My hunger pangs were OFF THE CHAIN too! Once the sun went down I would SWALLOW MY FOOD lol...

When I first joined my church, my pastor mentioned a few times to us about SOUL TIES . It was a new term but not necessarily foreign, only because at that moment I felt as if I was tangled up in something. Something that I could not put a finger on. And so when my pastor described to us that SOUL TIES primarily result from engaging in sexual relationships with people who God hasn’t chosen for us, *cough FORNICATION cough* I was dumbstruck. He also told us that when we have sex, there is a transference of spirits from one person to the next. Similar to when someone shakes hands with someone and germs transfer from one hand to another You can say that was my !AHA ! moment.  Needless to say it took me almost a WHOLE YEAR AND HALF to untangle myself from that SOUL TIE! That SOUL TIE might I add. had me so WRAPPED UP AND BOUND it wasn’t even funny yo! Then even after I was delivered, I found that I had scars, unhealed rope burns, and bruises on my spirit and they all were ...