Tanzy Alexis Said It!

  Ecclesiastes 7:8 "Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. " You know, I sat back and allowed God to show me a recap of my life this year and boy did I feel a bunch of goosebumps rise from my SHANDO! This was a very painful year for me, growth wise. No I didn't lose a loved one, THANK THE LORD, but the many times I lay awake at night crying myself into a coma, I'm pretty sure my neighbors would have thought I lost MY WHOLE FAMILY. Chile, I had to FIGHT EVERYDAY! No rest!  From the outside it would look like I had a pretty swell year with the publishing of my first novel TEARS OF KINGS and the mini praise breaks in between. But I kind of compared that to when Rocky ran up all those stairs during his training to be a boxer. With the epic theme song of that scene playing in the background, Rocky made it up those stairs.  Well, that's what all those things felt like. But...

One of my favorite Disney shows as a teenager was That’s So Raven . Ha! Don’t try to act like you didn’t like that show either! It was fun and funny, especially because Raven played by Raven Simone from the Cosby Show , would always find herself in crazy situations. This show was also different because Raven had the ability to see glimpses of the future. I remember wishing I had that ability. I was 14 at the time and all I really wanted to know was, “What will my life look like in the future?” “Will I look better, feel better, and BE BETTER off than I am now/” These were questions I often wondered if anybody else asked themselves at my age. So yeah, on Raven’s show, right before Raven would do something major she would be provoked to stop what she was doing and BAM there was the image of her doing something in the future. Most of the time these visions were just a few seconds long and there was no other explanation or extra detail given. Raven had to figure out HOW to make that ...

  Man, can you believe it's DECEMBER ALREADY? Where has the year gone? Smh So did you guys enjoy Thanksgiving? How much did you eat? Lol. I enjoyed mines. Even though I haven't really been in the holiday spirits, I forced myself to at least be thankful for my family and my life period. So yeah, this past weekend, I had the pleasure of hanging out with a friend to celebrate his birthday. I was actually super eager to have a reason to get out my castle on a Friday night. We went to a few spots, two of which were clubs. Let me tell you, I haven't been to a club in YEARS so I had to adjust my mindset for the environment.  The music was LIVE and the people were vibing. It was cool minus the ass to shoulders crampness, HA! I was digging the scene with a gangsta lean Woop woop lol. Anywho, I allowed myself to be separated from the people I came with to mingle with people I didn't know from Eve or Adam. Chile BOOM!  In one of the places, I kid you not, it was l...

According to Worldometers.com, there are 7 BILLION people in the world today. Did you read that? 7 BILLION! That’s an amazing figure if you ask me. It’s amazing because GOD took a few handfuls of dirt and breathed His own breath into a creature, a man, and He named him Adam. Then He pulled a rib from Adam and made another creature, a woman, and He named her Eve. From Adam and Eve came the FIRST OFFSPRINGS OF HUMANITY, Cain and Abel. After Cain KILLED Abel, Adam and Eve had more children and their children had children and so on, and so on and VOILA, 7 BILLION PEOPLE are on this Earth! But wait, let’s go back to that whole shebang about Cain killing Abel. How did this happen? The celebration of LIFE in the Garden of Eden had just begun and you mean to tell me somebody was killed ALREADY? You’ve got to be kidding me yo! Ya homeboy Cain got jealous of Abel basically because Abel received more favor from God. And it was not because God was showing any kind of favoritism either. ...

"Somebody prayed for me. Had me on their mind. Took the time to praaaay for me. I'm so glad they prayed! I'm so glad they prayed! I'm so glad they praaayed for me!" Those are the lyrics of one of the easiest hymms I learned my first year being in the GANG OF JESUS! I came from out the world and off the streets NAKED (not literally lol), when five years ago, I joined the church that I'm now an ACTIVE MEMBER. Before that, I knew nothing about NOTHING in regards to the church. I just knew my life was hydroplaning out of control and SOMEBODY by the NAME OF JESUS could take the wheel and keep me from falling off a cliff. It was DO OR DIE for me you feel me? I used to purposely come to church sometimes a little early. Before service and before Sunday school, until it became a habit. Why? I always looked forward to hearing a certain woman pray. I'm telling you, this lady could brush the clouds away and pull the sky apart with her prayers! POWERFUL PRAYE...

A few days ago I sat in my castle meditating after experiencing an emotional breakdown. As I traveled through my thoughts I began to count how many times I’ve experienced a broken heart. I counted three major heartbreaks. My first heartbreak happened when I was 20 after my first boyfriend told me he didn’t want to work on our relationship. I remembered being so distraught and hurt, I left out of my home during a snow storm and walked. I had no destination whatsoever. I just walked and cried. I didn’t know how to treat that broken heart the RIGHT WAY , so I embarked upon a journey of careless yet perpetrated assaults on other people’s hearts. This led me right into MY SECOND HEARTBREAK. I thought I could handle being in a FRIEND’S WITH BENEFITS relationship with someone, but I couldn’t. When this thing BLEW UP in my face and I found out I was just a chess piece in a game that I SIGNED UP for, it pained me. It hurt me more when I found out I wasn’t the only woman in this game and ...

Hold up! Hold up! Before you can go any further with this post, if you are feeling some type of way about the title, then I'm going to need you to exit STAGE LEFT...NOW! Those of you who could careless about the title and are more concerned with what I have to say,then by all means stay with me. Grab you some WINFINE and have yourself a seat! LOL! (Clearing my thrOAK) I used to be a different kind of girl before I knew God. I was mean, belligerent, and I could care LESS about anybody. I didn't give a DAMN! My world was just that, MINE and if you didn't like it you had to kick rocks. My girlfriends tolerated me because they actually really did love my baldheaded self but their boyfriends HATED ME! I would curse them out at the drop of a hat. Wooo chile! But then something happened. GOD happened to me. You see on the inside I was sad and hurting. After God got a hold of me, He ripped me apart, emptied me out, and poured all of that nasty stuff out. Then He poured back in...