Tanzy Alexis Said It!

  Ecclesiastes 7:8 "Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit. " You know, I sat back and allowed God to show me a recap of my life this year and boy did I feel a bunch of goosebumps rise from my SHANDO! This was a very painful year for me, growth wise. No I didn't lose a loved one, THANK THE LORD, but the many times I lay awake at night crying myself into a coma, I'm pretty sure my neighbors would have thought I lost MY WHOLE FAMILY. Chile, I had to FIGHT EVERYDAY! No rest!  From the outside it would look like I had a pretty swell year with the publishing of my first novel TEARS OF KINGS and the mini praise breaks in between. But I kind of compared that to when Rocky ran up all those stairs during his training to be a boxer. With the epic theme song of that scene playing in the background, Rocky made it up those stairs.  Well, that's what all those things felt like. But

One of my favorite Disney shows as a teenager was That’s So Raven . Ha! Don’t try to act like you didn’t like that show either! It was fun and funny, especially because Raven played by Raven Simone from the Cosby Show , would always find herself in crazy situations. This show was also different because Raven had the ability to see glimpses of the future. I remember wishing I had that ability. I was 14 at the time and all I really wanted to know was, “What will my life look like in the future?” “Will I look better, feel better, and BE BETTER off than I am now/” These were questions I often wondered if anybody else asked themselves at my age. So yeah, on Raven’s show, right before Raven would do something major she would be provoked to stop what she was doing and BAM there was the image of her doing something in the future. Most of the time these visions were just a few seconds long and there was no other explanation or extra detail given. Raven had to figure out HOW to make that

  Man, can you believe it's DECEMBER ALREADY? Where has the year gone? Smh So did you guys enjoy Thanksgiving? How much did you eat? Lol. I enjoyed mines. Even though I haven't really been in the holiday spirits, I forced myself to at least be thankful for my family and my life period. So yeah, this past weekend, I had the pleasure of hanging out with a friend to celebrate his birthday. I was actually super eager to have a reason to get out my castle on a Friday night. We went to a few spots, two of which were clubs. Let me tell you, I haven't been to a club in YEARS so I had to adjust my mindset for the environment.  The music was LIVE and the people were vibing. It was cool minus the ass to shoulders crampness, HA! I was digging the scene with a gangsta lean Woop woop lol. Anywho, I allowed myself to be separated from the people I came with to mingle with people I didn't know from Eve or Adam. Chile BOOM!  In one of the places, I kid you not, it was l

According to Worldometers.com, there are 7 BILLION people in the world today. Did you read that? 7 BILLION! That’s an amazing figure if you ask me. It’s amazing because GOD took a few handfuls of dirt and breathed His own breath into a creature, a man, and He named him Adam. Then He pulled a rib from Adam and made another creature, a woman, and He named her Eve. From Adam and Eve came the FIRST OFFSPRINGS OF HUMANITY, Cain and Abel. After Cain KILLED Abel, Adam and Eve had more children and their children had children and so on, and so on and VOILA, 7 BILLION PEOPLE are on this Earth! But wait, let’s go back to that whole shebang about Cain killing Abel. How did this happen? The celebration of LIFE in the Garden of Eden had just begun and you mean to tell me somebody was killed ALREADY? You’ve got to be kidding me yo! Ya homeboy Cain got jealous of Abel basically because Abel received more favor from God. And it was not because God was showing any kind of favoritism either.

"Somebody prayed for me. Had me on their mind. Took the time to praaaay for me. I'm so glad they prayed! I'm so glad they prayed! I'm so glad they praaayed for me!" Those are the lyrics of one of the easiest hymms I learned my first year being in the GANG OF JESUS! I came from out the world and off the streets NAKED (not literally lol), when five years ago, I joined the church that I'm now an ACTIVE MEMBER. Before that, I knew nothing about NOTHING in regards to the church. I just knew my life was hydroplaning out of control and SOMEBODY by the NAME OF JESUS could take the wheel and keep me from falling off a cliff. It was DO OR DIE for me you feel me? I used to purposely come to church sometimes a little early. Before service and before Sunday school, until it became a habit. Why? I always looked forward to hearing a certain woman pray. I'm telling you, this lady could brush the clouds away and pull the sky apart with her prayers! POWERFUL PRAYERS y

A few days ago I sat in my castle meditating after experiencing an emotional breakdown. As I traveled through my thoughts I began to count how many times I’ve experienced a broken heart. I counted three major heartbreaks. My first heartbreak happened when I was 20 after my first boyfriend told me he didn’t want to work on our relationship. I remembered being so distraught and hurt, I left out of my home during a snow storm and walked. I had no destination whatsoever. I just walked and cried. I didn’t know how to treat that broken heart the RIGHT WAY , so I embarked upon a journey of careless yet perpetrated assaults on other people’s hearts. This led me right into MY SECOND HEARTBREAK. I thought I could handle being in a FRIEND’S WITH BENEFITS relationship with someone, but I couldn’t. When this thing BLEW UP in my face and I found out I was just a chess piece in a game that I SIGNED UP for, it pained me. It hurt me more when I found out I wasn’t the only woman in this game and

Hold up! Hold up! Before you can go any further with this post, if you are feeling some type of way about the title, then I'm going to need you to exit STAGE LEFT...NOW! Those of you who could careless about the title and are more concerned with what I have to say,then by all means stay with me. Grab you some WINFINE and have yourself a seat! LOL! (Clearing my thrOAK) I used to be a different kind of girl before I knew God. I was mean, belligerent, and I could care LESS about anybody. I didn't give a DAMN! My world was just that, MINE and if you didn't like it you had to kick rocks. My girlfriends tolerated me because they actually really did love my baldheaded self but their boyfriends HATED ME! I would curse them out at the drop of a hat. Wooo chile! But then something happened. GOD happened to me. You see on the inside I was sad and hurting. After God got a hold of me, He ripped me apart, emptied me out, and poured all of that nasty stuff out. Then He poured back in

If you were to ask me, “Tanzy what is the magic formula to being FEARLESS?” There’s NO MAGIC FORMULA. You just be it! You wake up one day and YOU DECIDE to be FEARLESS. And when you do that, you become INVISIBLE AND INVINCIBLE. Brick walls crumble and fall. Monsters lose their INTIMIDATING PRESENCE. Your confidence is on TEN!   Haters make noise but the sounds that they make suddenly are MUTED. You become the poster child for the scripture,                                       Romans 8:37 “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” You still don’t believe me when I say that there ISN’T a magic formula to being FEARLESS do you? Please believe me my friends, there isn’t! Look at it this way, there’s a man out there, alot of us KNOW HIM. He’s a regular human being like you and me. He eats, he sleeps, he poops, he laughs, he cries, and he BLEEDS. But guess what, he’s a BASKETBALL PLAYER. Well how do you know that Tanzy? Because when the

 WARNING this post is going to be going in a completely different flow. Alright, please don't think I'm crazy but as long as I can remember I have been able to interpret dreams. I had one this morning that I think I'm supposed to share with y'all. So here it goes; I was on the bus and someone got sick and vomited. I rememeber feeling disgusted and annoyed so I got off. Wherever i was going i walked back to another bus stop. I remember thinking, "I've been here before." The bus stop I knew I needed to go to was a ways away. So I looked for another one. Found one that wemt down a hill and past a viaduct. As I walked I thought I might fall so I slowed down.  Next thing I know I see two men coming from an opening on the side of the viaduct and I sensed danger. So I turned back around but they saw me and began to follow me. Even though I was scared I was calm. I looked back and was able to see the faces of these men. One had sandy brown dreadlocks pu

You’re smart you know that? I’m smart too! We’re all very smart. If someone was to perform some sort of cranial surgery on us and took our brains out to weigh and examine them, they would find that our brains weigh a KILLATON because we’re that damn smart. And at the lovely age you are now, you should be able to use your brain to know the difference between right and wrong. Right? I don’t know about you but I know that it’s fairly easy to look at a situation someone ELSE is in and decide whether they handled themselves RIGHT OR WRONG. Yet, what happens when I’m in a similar situation? How do I handle myself? 99.9% of the time I can say with confidence that I have made the right decision in sticky situations. That infamous .01% though…CHILE BOOM, I have told myself, “Tonight I’m going to DANCE FOR THE DEVIL!” And it’s not that I ACCIDENTLY make these WRONG DECISIONS. Every single WRONG DECISION I have made was INTENTIONAL, thought out, PREMEDITATED, systematically calculate

   Well good afternoon, good morning, good evening wherever you are right now, HELLO!!! I pray all is good in your neighborhood. I am officially back into the swing of things, considering last week I took a vacation from work and everything else AND I celebrated my 27TH birthday. Praise JESUS!!! Anybody'shwho, this post is going to be fairly brief. In a few of my posts I mentioned that I was publishing a fiction novel. WELP, that book is here and running baby! I wrote it three years ago YES CHILE! Nevertheless, I pressed my way through and made it HAPPEN! Somebody say, "Hard work PAYS OFF!" It sure does. I have been raising a lot of hoopla about my baby via FACEBOOK and people have been shooting me messages regarding my child TEARS OF KING. The universal question that I have been asked, "What's your book about?" And because I can be a bit long winded, I decided to spell it out right here right now for those of you who are afraid to admit that you said,

This post is for anyone who’s in a rut right now, or feel as if they are stuck. Is it you? If God were to pay you a nice little ole visit to perform an audit on your life from January on up until now, what would He find? Would He find that you’ve been utilizing ALL of your gifts and talents? Would He find you to be more humble and selfless? Most importantly, would He find GROWTH? Where are you right now? What are you doing differently from last year? Have you started that business, wrote that book, lost that weight, found that new job? No? Are you even close? One day I was asking myself some of the same questions I’m asking you. The year is about to come to a close and a lot of things have changed for the better for me. But after setting dates for certain things to occur in my life to only find that those dates were catching up to me but I had nothing to give these dates, I started to get disappointed. After making a few bold declarations, I noticed that I was just filling my

I promised my life coach that I would write a post about a subject that spilled out of me during one of our sessions but everytime I started to do so, my spirit would be shifted in another direction. This is where I was lead, Tuesday night I cried myself to sleep, Friday night I cried, myself to sleep and Saturday night I cried myself to sleep. Mind you I have a birthday coming up. My book Tears of Kings is now available for anybody who likes to read. I'm free with no immediate worries. I may not have everything I want but I have everything I need. So why have I been crying so much? I mean I literally had to ask myself, "Are you bipolar or something, sweetie?" One day I'm doing cartwheels, singing in the rain, sliding down rainbows, chasing birds, and kissing flowers. Then the next day, I want to die! To make it worse, everywhere I turned I had the enemy irritating me. What gives? God has been doing an awesome job at getting me acquainted with how He works and i

?QUESTION? If God were to invite you out to the theatre to see a movie about YOU and the next stage of your life with all of its ups and downs, would you want to see it? Let’s go deeper. If God were to hand you a script starring YOU and after reading that script you found out that you would be betrayed, hurt, lied on, and criticized before you got your blessing, would you want to be in that movie?  Let’s go even DEEPER! If God were to give you a cup full of tears, sleepless nights, lonely days, and told you to drink it BEFORE He blessed you, would you drink it? Just think about it for a hot second. I really enjoyed, the Bible miniseries the History channel hosted this past Easter. One of the main parts that stuck with me was when Jesus saw a glimpse of what He was getting ready to endure. At that moment as well as in the bible itself, we got to see the human aspect of Jesus. He told God (I’m paraphrasing), “Look, I saw what you have called me to do and I sa